2021.10.28 01:25 KONO_DIO_DA_420 I got inside the train in spiderman: Miles morales.
2021.10.28 01:25 neurotic_hypnotic Genuine question from a late bloomer (20F) - what's the point of dating after a first love?
I've had an extremely shitty life involving trauma and mental illness that has continued to plague every aspect of my existence, but I would say the social part is what affects me the most. I've gone my whole life, from birth to now, not having a support system of any kind. Sensitive kid that would have needed a lot of help to thrive + horrible family = very socially and emotionally stunted. I got the opposite of what I needed growing up and the results were/are disastrous. I'm honestly surprised I wasn't bullied more.
I've definitely missed out on the milestones that most of my peers have hit by now. Even what I've managed to make progress on still sucks overall, compared to what it would have been if every aspect of my life wasn't cursed. But missing out on the stuff that truly makes life worth living is what hurts the most. The first teenage kiss, going on trips with friends, high school love. I never even had a proper birthday party. (This is without going into detail about all the other bullshit I've endured.)
I know for a fact that this going to be a problem for me if and when I actually do manage to find a relationship. Most guys in my age bracket will have progressed normally in terms of relationships/social development and probably life in general. Just personally, because of my shitshow existence, I cannot imagine not being bitter over this.
I actually do have clinically diagnosed OCD that causes me to experience retroactive jealousy, so I'd be envious of a partner's past relationships in the typical way, but then it'd also be a constant reminder of my miserable trauma-filled life that has deprived me of any joy. Like not only am I picturing this guy with his exes, it's a reminder that I didn't get to have any of that.
And it feels like everything I see affirms this. Everywhere, all I hear is how first loves are so special and profound and irreplaceable and nothing else will ever be able to compare, they're transformative, you'll never love anyone more than you loved them (or it won't be the same which = lessenot good enough). I've literally seen middle-aged married people talking about how they never got over their first love. Reddit is full of posts like these.
I hear a lot of placating statements about how future loves are more stable and fulfilling, even though they're not as passionate or intense; if I were the partner of someone who said that, I'd feel insulted. Doesn't this seem like settling? It would kill me to think that the person I gave my firsts to, who'd already had that with someone else, would never love me like he loved his first love or even another ex.
After everything I've been through, I hate that this is what I have to deal with (although I shouldn't be surprised at this point). "Stability", "depth", "fulfillment", these all just sound like buzzwords that people use to convince themselves they're okay with settling for someone they don't have as strong feelings for. Seems like first loves break a lot of people beyond repair and everything after that is just going through the motions.
TL;DR - What's the point of dating beyond a first love if that's the best it gets? Because this is pretty much what everyone says.
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2021.10.28 01:25 Nohan07 Tarn : Vitesse, cocaïne... Le chauffard qui avait tué une policière en 2018 jugé à Albi
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2021.10.28 01:25 Wayward_Prometheus PFL results: Kayla Harrison cruises into free agency with second straight $1 million title
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2021.10.28 01:25 GrantRae Pennant Race Team Talk - I've been loving the Freebooters
Freebooters have pretty good contact and okay power. Their top two starters are terrific and their bullpen is insane. I often take the start out after the first and use a ridiculously strong reliever in every subsequent inning. Their biggest downfall imo is they don't have any catchers with a good arm. Who are you guys using? Any other Freebooters freebasers?
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2021.10.28 01:25 Defiel1 Agreed
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2021.10.28 01:25 Digitalhero_x Unsuccessful transaction: balance_release_failed
2021.10.28 01:25 lucaselga ReOpening Discord Group
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2021.10.28 01:25 Bison_Strict Faked feelings and then went into an immediate relationship with another
Lol ok this person told me many many many times that they liked me and wanted a relationship with me and blah blah blah all the sweet stuff. We weren't even dating we were practically friends with benefits. Anyways through the 3-4 months they'd constantly say these things but then we started talking less and less and then they'd get to the point of not wanting to talk to me or hang out. I tried to resolve this to figure out what they truly wanted but it wasn't until the end they were flirting with another that they finally said no I dont want a relationship. HOWEVER, they said right after they wanted to be alone and work on themselves and whatever. They pointed out things they didnt like about me constantly in the end and also said I needed to fix myself when in reality I did everything I thought was right. I kept myself in check when I thought I was overthinking and kept my insecurities to myself. I never put anything on them. And then right after literally the day after they're in a relationship with this person. I had a feeling this had been going on for awhile but it really has put me in a funk when it became a cold reality. They're still together after 5 months now. It makes me feel like I did something so terribly wrong. That I'm practically unlovable. I know that isn't true but sometimes it really gets to me. Like no matter what I do it's wrong. There was no honesty from them. There was just me being strung along until they were done. I was hoping for sometime to get an apology for the way I was treated but they think they did nothing wrong. And I didn't even bother saying anything in the first place because I was never heard during that whole period. Its just so messed up that someone says how much they want to be with you and how much they like you but they can't be with you because they'd rather be alone. And then turn around to do this immediately after I cut contact. I would've been fine if they'd just said hey this is just casual and didn't f*ck with my emotions. It's hard to heal from when I see them everyday too so I just avoid them as much as possible🤗
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2021.10.28 01:25 anarkyfilms How to stay motivated
I want to do intermittent fasting for the next two months Novmebedecember and on…. and im looking for tips to help out, Ive set alarms, prepped food. the thing is my motivation to continue it, Im alone (live alone) and dont really have someone that goes to the gym or follows a healthy habit. looking to see how some of you started and how I can start the journey.
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2021.10.28 01:25 hammerdown710 Will bundle
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2021.10.28 01:25 Foreign-Necessary692 Why do people take pictures of their screens instead of taking a screenshot?
2021.10.28 01:25 lolthatsfun Is this power supply enough to power a system with Ryzen 5 3400G and a few SATA SSDs? Yes, the big text says 400 but the small texts says the maximum capacity is 327W. Will the system fail if I go over that anount?
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2021.10.28 01:25 _WonkaSuS_ dex + coke + maybe klon?
me and my homie are getting together this weekend, i have dex and klon and hes gonna get coke so we were basically gonna go on a bender. how dangerous is this? do we just need to limit ourselves or is it really dangerous?
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2021.10.28 01:25 Fw620 The dip is our friend!!! Hold and buy
2021.10.28 01:25 Nonasifenoheen He has a point
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2021.10.28 01:25 fabian_2717 Trigger problem
Hi I just bought a new Perun Mosfet for my G&G cm 16 srl and I plugged it in with no issue but when I try and program it, I notice that the trigger isn’t responsive like I press it after I’m done programming it and it’ll shoot one time I shoot it but then the next time I shoot it dosent want to shoot. Does anybody know the problem?
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2021.10.28 01:25 AndreTheTallGuy Seen in Fullerton California in December of last year. Any ideas?
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2021.10.28 01:25 dinosaregaylikeme What happens to serial killer's pets when they get arrested? And how many did have pets?
I am high right now and watching a doc on Dahmer with my husband. And Dahmer is a huge fan on fish tanks.
He is the one who said "should of gone to school. Get a job in realstate and buy fish tank. That is what I should of done." Man loved his fishes.
What happened to his fish when he got arrested????? Did any other serial killers keep pets???? What happened to them after their own got arrested?
And yes I know that most tortured small animals as a kid. But I think once they graduate to humans they don't go back down to small animals so they get a nice pet to keep company.
And I have a hunch that most of them are cats. Cat people are capable of murder.
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2021.10.28 01:25 Harvesting_Evuhdens Chair top slpooting.
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2021.10.28 01:25 Polyar 211028 Haeyoon Twitter Update
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2021.10.28 01:25 Glove_Gloomy 26[M4F] Horror movie marathon
2021.10.28 01:25 micaelacourtney How to Stop emails automatically going to Trash?
How can I stop emails from automatically ending up in my trash? I use Gmail.
I do use unroll.me occasionally, but I have a bunch of emails (mostly not important, but occasionally I would like to see) that go straight into trash. How can I solve this problem?
I haven’t got any auto filters on, so I don’t know how they end up there.
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2021.10.28 01:25 NDNWA Account possibly compromised
Recently one of my emails was hacked, and it appears someone has been accessing my crypto.com account. I’ve looked at the activity and it seems that they converted all of the altcoins on my account into bitcoin. But the weird person is they didn’t withdrawal it… they just converted my holding into bitcoin an did nothing else. I’m really sketched out and not sure what to do. Please help!!!!
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2021.10.28 01:25 Dr_Fleeb Can’t stop monitoring